I went through an entire year, pondering what could I have done to help my brother improve? Could I have visited him? We were on speaking terms, but I admit, I had kept some distance from him because, honestly, it was sometimes exhausting, not having trust in him. And with this exhaustion, I fell into a depression after his passing. I felt guilt and ashamed because I did not have him in my life like I had wanted him to be. He struggled, and he ultimately reached sobriety. But, not without other struggles that came along the way.

During this year, between 2012-2013, I was having my own struggles with drinking and prescribed anti-anxiety medication, including tranquilizers. When my brother died, I can only say that I went more downward than ever! I will be sharing more in later posts, but what I can tell you, is that it took me almost a whole year to wake up to the fact that, if I did not stop the downward spiral I was on, I would wind up just as alone as my brother was when he passed.

No, I am not yet sharing specifics, like my brother's name, circumstances....not yet. This is more of an introductory post. What I anticipate, is to open up more about sobriety, wellness, my brother, my own life experiences. Where I am at in this point of time, I anticipate sharing things from my education, work and coaching experiences. And by sharing this blog, I want to help people to realize, that with all that is lost, YOU have control of gaining back what you may believe can never be found. It is your choice. I am living proof, as I have crawled out of torment and now live in greater peace. I will surely go into more detail with more posts, but I can honestly say that I got help like I needed, and I turned it around. You can do the same, and I hope I can give information that will encourage people to keep moving and become their own version of sober and well.

Thank you for reading. I look forward to growing this blog, and I hope I can reach people by sharing as often as I can. :)